I'm in a dillemma. I do not know which course to choose. Come to think of it, I have not even made a decision yet. I'm still in the same position as 2 months ago when deciding which course I should pursue. I have to stop running away from making decisions- especially one that would have a great impact on my future. Just when I think that I have convinced myself to settle for one course, there would be something that would change my mind.

Honestly speaking, both courses are equally great. I'm torn. Sometimes I find myself debating on the merits/demerits of each course the whole day. In the night, I silently plead that I would dream of something- or anything that can help me make a decision. If life has a remote control, I would like to fast forward my life to the next ten years. I want to see what I will be doing in the future- whether I would love doing what I do- knowing that whatever I do will benefit people. There is a saying that goes 'it is always greener on the other side'. I do not want to make an irrational decision only to regret it years later. Only to start thinking what it would be like if I chose the other course.. Would I be a happier person?

There are many factors that can sway my decision- distance, my future prospects with the degree, what I would like to be in the future.. Do I really want to have a chemistry future? Do I really want to work in a lab in the future? Sure, I have to put in much effort as I admit that I do not posess a great aptitude for Chemistry.. More importantly, will I have enough steam to carry myself through?

On the other hand, I have to admit that I am interested in the sample course material of political science. When I read that short paragraph in the website, I was swept by it. I felt like I understood the material. At that time, it appealed more to me than the likes of hydrocarbons etc etc.. But will my interest be short lived?

I am me- but I do not understand myself best. Some say that I am a social science kind of person, many (and even I myself) will agree that a Chemistry degree will do me good in the future.

But what do I really want? Only time would tell..

OUT!