AAAAARGHH!!!! I dread work tomorrow!!! Why? Because I will be alone operating the switchboard.. There are sooo much of responsibilities.. I'm afraid I'm not capable of handling them. Felt !@#$%%^^ last Saturday. I felt insulted and yet grateful. I know you mean well but I've never felt so humiliated before!!! YOU made me feel like a skiving FIVE YEAR OLD! DAMN!!!!! YOU made me feel so useless, I felt like breaking down at that time. But, I'm also grateful that you gave me a crash course and that you meant well. I'm trying my best to be objective about my opinion of you but somehow I just can't help but feel that your scathing remarks were kind of personal. I HATE work now. Working forces me to kan ren jia de lian se, I am miserable there. Sometimes I ask myself what am I doing there. Why must she have so much faith in me? I'm afraid that I won't be able to perform my job well tomorrow and disappoint many people who taught me selflessly despite the circumstances. And I am stuck in the afternoon shift for the most part of the week again. Except for Wednesday and Thursday. This sort of working experience has only strengthened my resolve to go back to school and enjoy my student life. I miss school, I miss my friends and more importantly I miss complaining about some stuffs freely.

However, there are some highlights of this job also. I get to interact with people. In a weird sort of way, the people whom I have great respect of, do not work with me. For example, I had the honour to work and know this fantastic person called Wendy from another department :) While escorting people up, I get to know more about them, their families. Very often, they impart real life experiences and knowledge which are beyond the text book. There are exceptions also. There's this girl called Grace who is in my department who is really a funny and serious girl. I find myself clicking with her and Wendy easily.

Sometimes I find myself hating my job so much that I'll probably rejoice and do a victory dance if they fire me. Hopefully I can survive past tomorrow.

OUT!